I destroyed the chaos that hurdled towards me like a hunter fighting a beast.
I had a gut feeling that what I needed was to fight the thoughts that kept me trapped in a reality that was dim.
I couldn’t accept myself, my thoughts or the words that unwillingly flowed through my mouth.
My tongue tried to hold back the truths but the truths out weight my lies.
I was never a liar by choice.
Never a liar by manipulation
But I lied to keep my heart safe.
Safe from the harsh words of those I love.
I destroyed the chaos.
I destroyed the pain, but in return, I fell in a cycle of fighting demons each day.