Merry Christmas!


Merry Christmas everyone!

Today is a day where I usually reflect on what I am grateful for. I am grateful to be able to make it into another new year. I am grateful for my family and friends. I am grateful that I can embrace the art of writing. I learned that creativity is a blessing in desguise.

The new year is almost here and I haven’t been more excited. I am excited to start 2019 because I have so much I want to explore and accomplish. Another year of life, another year for change.

I used not to take change well growing up. I used to feel down during the holidays because I dwelled on all the negative that has happened before Christmas day and new years. I decided that I no longer want to let the past define me.

I want to live in the now. I want to look forward to the future. The past has been a rollercoaster but I have the power to get off that ride and grow. I cant wait to have my dreams come true one day.

I want to let the world know that when you look forward, the world looks a little brighter. I am experiencing that right now. The past is good to look at to reflect and learn but I will no longer let it consume me.

Hope for the future. Keep on walking and forget to look back.

Take a Deep Breath


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Ever feel like life has become too much? Ever feel if like the world is squishing you, turning you into a tiny particle of dust?

I know I’ve reached days where I had a weight on my shoulder. Every single obstacle in my way accumulated on my shoulder. As I felt the tears fall down my face during those times, I thought when would the stress end.

Months later I realized, emotional pain sucks but it won’t last forever. Life can only get better. Only things that can get worse are obstacles but if you fight hard, they will die. You will live. Live to see that things do get better.

When I was a little girl, the world wasn’t as bright as it is now. See, I had obstacles from

a young age. As I aged, they only kept getting more intense until one day I vowed to only make life get better.

I made it out of the past and now all I have is the present. Now all I have is this moment. I choose to smile even when life gets rough because a smile heals the soul sometimes. When you grin or laugh, it’s like seeing beautiful butterflies in front of your face. For a second I forget what it feels like to frown as I hold that smile.

The present is all that matters because any day life can end. Why live in the past? Why obsess over the future? Right now, and I mean this exact moment you are alive and able to embrace the people around you.

Enjoy life while you can. Smile, laugh, and remember that the present is all that matters. Take a deep breath right now, close your eyes and thank destiny for making you the unique individual you are today.

Bless You Future


Things don’t go how I went them too and I freak out.

I start thinking it’s not fixable.

When I was a little girl, I thought the sad feeling in me was not fixable.

I thought I was destined to feel sad and be bullied.

I thought I was destined to be lonely.

Years ago I never knew I’ll still be holding up.

That I’ll still be working hard to make my mother proud.

Things get better I learned. Things feel better. Things make sense the older you get.

When I was a teenager I made some mistakes.

Thought I would live a life of turmoil and pain.

Here I am, years later, making mistakes still but learning from them.

Looking at the past as a guideline for what I want to leave behind.

Also what I want to bring with me into the future.

I learned from my childhood and teen self that the present isn’t easy, but the future is an escape I wouldn’t want to miss out on.

Goodbye past, hello present, bless you future.

The past looked into my eyes


Taken by surprise, there you were.

Like a mouse in a house full of cats and dogs I hid.

My past was there standing before my eyes.

Your eyes looked into mine from a distance.

We looked away at the same time.

I wondered if you remembered all the pain you caused me while looking into my eyes.

Is that why you looked away?

I felt anger but common sense told me to just look away.

You got on a different train cart as me.

I avoided seeing you again.

The past looked into my eyes today.

The past hid behind another train cart.

The past didn’t apologize.

The past didn’t try to come near my present.

The past is what you are.

The past is where you will forever stay.

From the girl you used to know


This is a letter from the girl you used to know.

The girl you used to see in the mirror.

The broken child you used to be.

This is a letter from the shy child who never spoke up.

Never said anything about her sorrows, and had secrets.

This is from the girl you used to be.

Now you are a woman.

I am proud of who you are.

It’s amazing knowing that one day I won’t be shy.

That one day, I’ll have friends who actually love me.

That one day I’ll have countless lovers through time who teach me about myself and life.

It’s amazing knowing one day I will make writing my life.

I will be motivated to keep, you know, living.

This is a letter from the child that still is inside you.

She cries some days and that’s why you feel your heart aching.

You have done a good job at trying to heal me.

You have healed me to some extent, still, need some work.

Things you still haven’t dealt with I suppose.

Thank you.

Thank you for working through the obstacles and the anxiety.

The ups and downs and the inner hideous people who we’ve encountered.

To the woman I am now, how did I ever get to be such a bold woman.

Such a strong woman.

How were you ever the girl you used to be?