Like a cloud

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The world may seem like a dark shark infested system.

The sky is unreachable and untenable.

Dreams hang from the tears of desperate young souls who long for success.

It may seem like the world has many dead ends.

If you open your eyes and stare directly at the clouds, you’ll be able to catch your breath.

As the clouds roam the sky that we cannot touch, you are reminded that life is slower than we think.

We rush through everything because that’s how society has survived.

Run for the train, fast-paced jobs, and extreme anxiety keeps us on the edge.

But as you look in the sky, the slowness of the clouds drifting slows your mind a little, doesn’t it?

See, like the clouds we have the power to slow down.

To slower our heart rate by just closing our eyes and imagining that we already reached success.

Sometimes patience is all we need.

Don’t go in desperation for your dreams because life has a funny way of just pushing them farther.

If you do it slow but steady, you will reach them with a calmness in your soul that will prepare you for what you just obtained.

We are not sharks.

We are souls trapped in bodies.

Souls that long for success.

Souls that just like clouds, need to enjoy life with patience and steadiness.

A cloud makes it all over the world, in the slowest fashion but it has reached farther territory than any fast-paced bird.

Within

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My hair symbolizes a lot to me. It symbolizes my need for change, my need to be in charge and my need to take out frustrations.

This summer I did something I would’ve never done in the past. I cut my hair above my shoulders. It was shorter than it has ever been in my 22 years on this planet.

Everyone questioned me and asked why I cut my long hair. At first, I would say because I wanted to. Yes, it’s my choice and I wanted to. My hair, my choice to do whatever I want with it of course.

I realized once I kept wanting to cut my hair even shorter that I was doing it for deeper reasons. I was going through a hard time precisely when I made that decision.

I was at a point where I was frustrated with my emotions, myself and my memories. I needed a big change. Something to distract my mind from the hardships of life.

That first time I cut my hair I felt liberated. This change was going to bring me a confidence I was lacking. I was liberated from being the same woman who was melting away inside. I looked in the mirror and saw something different.

The second time I cut my hair even shorter was because I had reached a breaking point. I wanted to keep escaping from who I was and the image I was so accustomed to in the mirror.

Yes cutting my hair was positive but I was avoiding the truth within. The truth that I was unhappy and I had to heal within so I could love what I saw in the mirror.

Short hair, long hair, makeup, bare-faced, I had to fall in love again with what was within…

News feed

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The first thing we do is go on the internet and check our news feed.

We are hit with stories of the grim reality of life. The reality that we all die.

We are hit with people arguing, scandals, stories that make us say oh my god.

The first thing we do is watch a video on what’s wrong with the world. It’s all the news talks about. Sure they sprinkle a positive news story here and there but they are amongst a sea of negativity.

Why must we shed a light on the painful reality that no one is safe and death is inevitable?

We see our social media friends bashing women, bashing men, bashing moms, bashing anyone who is not like them.

The world likes to high light the bad, ugly and unfortunate.

Is this why we can’t seem to smile first thing in the morning?

Disconnect?

Is that what we must do every once in a while?

I’m not saying throw that phone out the window, burn your laptop and destroy the t.v.

Maybe, just maybe, we can look out the window and see the blue sky before checking our phones.

Hug our pet, our lover, our children and love the fact that we woke up to see another day.

Once we take in the positivity within our small worlds, we are prepared enough to take in the negativity within our phones displaying the bigger world outside of our small worlds.

I know, it’s a complicated sentence but what I’m trying to say is we have to appreciate what we have to fight the ugly of this world.

Maybe just maybe, we can hmm I don’t know, Disconnect once in a while?

A tale of two what ifs

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All I ever want to do is hold you.

To tell you I will never hurt you.

To show you what I lacked in the past I don’t lack any longer.

To show you that I can give you the world and carry it on my shoulders.

Sometimes we meet a person who changed our whole lives.

That’s you.

You made me aware of pain and comfort.

Aware of loss and gain.

All I ever wanted was for us to grow… but destiny just had other plans I guess.

We will always be nothing more than two souls who could’ve, should’ve and would’ve been twin flame lovers…

Creative with makeup

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Hey guys,

My best friend is really good at using her creativity with make up. She has always inspired me to get better at my make up. Not only is she a great person but she has so much talent with make up.

Here’s some of her work.

Follow her on Instagram

@kattcorruptedmakeup

She will be doing my makeup, I will post that up later on.

Follow her page and enjoy the many looks she creates with makeup .

Beautiful in our own way

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I used to think the only way I could be beautiful was by being the “ideal” woman. I thought having a small waist, and a goddess like body was ideal.

I thought I’d be less lonely, less insecure and less empty with that ideal body. Got tired of the crash diets, and crying when I looked in the mirror. These few women that society glorifies have this image that the majority of women just don’t pertain to.

Us women come in different shapes and sizes. We are all made of different genes, different features, different beautiful skin tones.

What we see glorified on t.v and what society tells us we should look like is something we need to fight against.

We all come in different sizes and in different varieties. Us women make the world go round and if someone can’t accept your beauty in its unique form, then show them what they are messing with.

Be strong, be unapologetic.

This is a reminder to the world and myself that being a woman is much more than our bodies. It’s our brains, our smiles, our goals, our personalities, the list is infinite.

The “ideal” woman is every woman.

We are all ideal in our own beautiful way.