You ever feel lost?
I felt lost this whole semester.
Felt like my head was on backward.
Missing classes because of my anxiety.
An anxiety that I let get out of hand.
I failed exams and quizzes because of my anxiety.
My mind just blanks.
My heart beats so fast every day that I wonder how it still hasn’t exploded.
When I speak in class it’s if like word vomit comes out and I don’t make sense.
Or maybe it was just me over analyzing.
Wouldn’t be surprised.
I am an over analyzer.
This semester I felt lost.
Feel like I am going to fail.
Feel like my head wasn’t on right.
For a perfectionist, that is the end of the world.
But I don’t want to feel lost anymore.
It’s time I change my routine.
It is time I change my mindset.
If I didn’t do well this semester, God knows I’ll do well the next.
If my head is on backward, I will face it forward again.
If my heart beats fast, I will teach it to beat normal.
I am done feeling lost.
Lost simply is just not an option anymore.