Today has been super stressful. Well, actually this whole week has been stressful for me. Midterms, complicated statistics homework, and a presentation.
I got them over with but I can’t help but beat myself up over them.
I realized after the presentation, my first thoughts were, “I did badly.” “I repeated my self a lot.” “I stuttered.” “I was shaking the whole time.”
After my midterm, my first thoughts were, “I failed.”
After submitting my math homework I thought, “I’m getting a bad grade on this.”
I understood today that I am being super negative with myself. Why is that?
Why do we human beings tend to dwell so much on the negative? Our automatic thoughts are a lot of the times self-destructive.
I realized it’s how I combat those thoughts that will help me be able to sleep peacefully tonight. I have to stop and for every negative thought come up with a positive one.
This post is a reminder to myself and those out there under stress, We are doing our best.
As long as we try and learn from our mistakes, life will get better. Things get better.
That’s what I will tell myself, a bad grade or not, I tried my best.